my feelings

I’ve been trying to kick this habit
for a solid decade or two

maybe I should just let it be apart of me

but then I can’t be apart of you

I’ve cried, and wept, and screamed

but help, it never came

it just keeps pulling me down

my tears keep falling like rain

but through these tear soaked hands

and through these swollen eyes

I’m trying to make my voice sing out

in one last insincere lie

there’s hope, people say

there’ll be hope when I’m dead

but I can’t stand to be apart from you

I gotta get this poison out of my head

this addiction, it has me wrapped around it’s fingers

crushing soul and bone

but this ship, it’ll float just a few more days

i’ve gotta make it home.

I won’t ask for forgiveness again

it’s been too many times.

I’ve lied and stole to much grace

so consider as my last words these lines.

I’ll give you my heart if you’ll have it.

stains and scars and all

will you have it? will you have it?

one day, next to you can I stand tall?

these chains bind my body

and I don’t see no more hope.

but, dammit, I need you.

but I am lost and I am broke.

will you take me? knowing I’ll fail?

knowing that I will break your heart?

will you hold me, sing to me?

show me the light in all this dark?

I’ll give you what little there is left.

and, one day, maybe these chains will free.

because this addiction

can’t keep you from me.